It's been a while since I've updated my blog. Things have been going. Not well, but they're going. I've been slightly depressed lately. Depressed but too busy to really care. I hope these dark times are over soon. I'm trying to find ways I can make money and still be around for Miranda. Hopefully all that works out for me.

Speaking of the Panda, she's doing well. Growing and changing every day. Well, maybe not so much in the growing department. I'm afraid of what her doctors are going to tell me when we go back next month for her 18 month appointment. I doubt she's gained much weight. I'm trying to feed her healthy snacks and meals. She's on a veggie strike though which makes things rather difficult. Her vocabulary grows daily. She's constantly repeating things we say and teach her. It's amazing. I love my baby girl.

That's about it. Maybe I'll write more later.

September 26, 2008

I'm really loving how Adam rarely spends any time with me anymore. It seems like the only time he wants to be near me is to have sex. But I don't want to have sex so we just end up avoiding each other. Tonight he's at his dad's for poker night. I really hate this weekly poker crap. I miss spending time with my husband. I hate being alone every single night. It's sad that I'd rather hang out with Nicole or my brother because at least they don't expect anything of me. I'd like for once to sit down on the couch next to Adam and have him actually just want to be with me without wanting sex from me. To just have a conversation. Have him ask me if we'd like to go for a walk or a ride somewhere. I'd like him to be home at night sometimes to just watch a movie and relax. I'd like to not feel pulled in 10 million different directions every single weekend.

Monday September 22, 2008

I feel really good about today. I spent a good chunk of it cleaning my house. All I have left to do tomorrow is to finish up in the bathroom and vacuum the stairs. I still have a ton of de-cluttering and organizing to do, but at least the main areas all look clean. I think I will slowly go through all my closets and cabinets and maybe someday this apartment will be clean and organized from top to bottom.

Cute happenings...

So, I know it's been a while for an update. Bad blogger!! lol

Miranda did some really cute things today though. This morning while eating breakfast some hair got in her eye and she squinted the one eye and yelled "My Eye-Eye!" clear as day. It was too funny!! :) While watching Sesame Street (while I was cooking dinner) she saw some cows and immediatley started "mooing" and clapped every time they said "Yay!" It was cute. She also climbed into my friend's car seat so I tried to clip her in for ha-ha's and she still fit!!! Here's the proof:

And she had a grand old time playing with her "twin". :) What a great day!! I needed a pick-me-up day like this since I've been depressed since the weekend over some money troubles we have run into. *sigh*

Tuesday September 04, 2008

Today Miranda is 17 months old. I can't believe it's been 17 months since I held my little girl in my arms for the first time. Time sure does fly.

Lately, I've been doing a lot of thinking. I think that instead of buying a house that maybe I'd like to stay in this apartment for another year or two. I really like being right where I am. Kevin and Jen are thinking about getting pregnant early next year and I'd really like to stay here to help them out. Plus, I really don't think we can afford a mortgage and everything that goes with a house right now. Hopefully the housing market will continue to go down or at least stay where it is until we can get more money. If we try again next year, Adam will be making more and will have been at his job for longer so we'll get approved for at least a little more money. Then we can buy a more move-in ready house. If we stay right here and Kevin and Jen do have a baby then I could do daycare for them and that would bring in some money too. But I have to talk to Adam first and see what he thinks.

I've also been quite depressed lately that all my friends (online mostly) are pregnant again. I would really like to have another baby soon. I was thinking that it would be really great to get pregnant in January too because then Miranda and the new baby would be just about 2.5 years apart. That might work out pretty nice. On the other hand if we want them to be closer to 3 years apart we'll have to wait until July or August of next year. :( That seems like an awfully long time to wait.

You may disagree...

But one of my online friends posted a really great blog which pretty much sums up how I feel about circumcision. You may read it here: http://crunchyinsoymilk.blogspot.com/2008/08/spare-him-unkindest-cut.html (I got permission first)

You may not agree with me but ask me why and I'll debate with you until I'm blue in the face why routine infant circumcision is wrong!

Been a few days...

So, the last time I updated was Wednesday...let's see if I can sum up what has been going on since then...

Thursday - can't remember, couldn't have been anything special.
Friday - Adam's day off. Had dinner at Carmine's. He played poker at his dad's house.
Saturday - Went to the mall, got two new hermit crabs since Rufio died, Adam played his first game of Warhammer 40k, found out Mike's girlfriend is preggo (CONGRATULATIONS MIKE & NIKKI!)
Sunday - Was my dad's birthday. Took him out to dinner. Watched movies until 2am.

Today Adam had to work. Boo! MIL took the baby for the day. Went out shopping with Nicole. Got a few things to spice up the hermit crab tank. It looks pretty nifty now. :)

Tomorrow, going to a playdate (hopefully). Should be fun. Other than that just relaxing at home like always.